evanescent-void

Just kidding.

Three days ago, around 9:30pm there was an auto accident on highway 61.  Three fatalities, driver walking away with a few scratches.  The people involved in the wreck all came from my school, I wasn't really close to any of them, but it was still extremely shocking nonetheless.  The three victims were Kim Cornette (17), Chelsey Dooley (14), and Kaylon Ellis (14); the driver was her older brother, Justin Ellis (17).  They were coming home from a water park about 40 miles from town, Justin Claims he fell asleep at the wheel, woke up and slammed on the gas instead of the break, drilling the side railing, which ejected the girls from the car.  I don't fully believe his statement, because the car would have to have been traveling extremely fast to do the damage that was done, but that's up in the air and I really don't feel like debating it (earlier that week he got stopped for speeding at 130 mph).

Things like this really piss me off, I mean, why can't people just listen to the rules laid out for them?  Why do we always have to have a rebells or people that don't give two shits about anyone?  It's like everyone insists on NOT growing up in the way that they are supposed to.  This argument has been around forever, but something like this happening in a small town who's population consists of people with the mentality that nothing bad can ever happen will hopefully enforce it.

Tiffany got back from Japan the other day, woo! It was great talking to her again, I had been missing her voice for so long.  Found out a lot of interesting things from her about Japan, like how almost everyone smokes and doesn't brush their teeth, hardly any western style toilets (just holes in the floor), the raw fish AND chicken they eat, etc.  After hearing all that it's still hard to believe they have such a longer life span than our own.

Work has really been difficult lately, it seems we get more difficult tasks to perform every day.  My hours have been fluctuating lately, from 15 hours to 10 hours.  It's a lot, and sometimes I wonder if it's worth it.

I've recently developed a major obsession for movies, in the past few days I've watched: Requiem for a Dream, Sling Blade, Ransom, Memento, Pirates of the Carribean, Master and Commander, The Game and a few more.  My favorites out of the ones I've seen are Sling Blade, Requiem for a Dream, Memento, and The Game.  Each of those movies are extremely impactful, and I suggest each and every person who reads my journal to go rent them...now!

One of the books I have to read this summer for school next year is a book called The Crucible by Arthur Miller.  I just finished Act One, and there is one passage that I remember the most, which is:

"...we conceive the Devil as a necessary part of a respectable view of cosmology.  Ours is a divided empire in which certain ideas and emotions and actions are of God, and their opposites are of Lucifer.  It is as impossible for most men to conceive of a morality without sin as of an earth without "sky".  Since 1692 a great but superficial change has wiped out God's beard and the Devil's horns, but the world is still gripped between two diametrically opposed absolutes.  The concept of unity, in which positive and negative are attributes of the same force, in which good and evil are relative, ever-changing, and always joined to the same phenomenon--such a concept is still reserved to the physical sciences and to the few who have grasped the history of ideas.  When it is recalled that until the Christian era the underworld was never regarded as a hostile area, that all gods were useful and essentially friendly to man despite occasional lapses; when we see the steady and methodical inculcation into humanity of the idea of man's worthlessness--until redeemed--the necessity of the Devil may become evident as a weapon, a weapon designed and used time and time again in every age to whip men into a surrender to a particular church or church-state."

This passage followed the incident of John Proctor, a character in the play, denouncing himself from the church due to the fact that all he ever hears is the Devil's name being preached, the damnation of men and the consequence of stepping one foot out of God's plan. "I have trouble enough without I come five mile to hear him preach only hellfire and  bloody damnation.  Take it to heart, Mr. Parris.  There are many others who stay away from the church these days because you hardly ever mention God any more."

It's a great book so far, it's all about the Salem witch trials and events that took place about 1692, though not non-fiction, for a few things have been changed for the purpose of drama.

I'll be heading off to California soon, not exactly sure when, but it should be fun.

These 15 hour work days are about to kill me, manual labor never was fun, though. Hopefully it will pay off in the end.

Jut released a wallpaper pack for my piece Awaiting the Day, you can find it here.

I miss Tiffany.

I need an asprin.

I finally bought myself a deviantArt subscription, and I must say that it was worth every penny.  The browsing is faster, journal looks cool, awesome features, etc.  I also bought Spaceartists a subscription, thought it might help the group out a bit if it had access to certain features, y'know?

Requiem for a Dream is beyond words...never before have I seen a movie that has made me cry 4 times (in the first go).  This has got to be the most impactful movie I have ever seen, the directors intention was to incite people against drugs, and well, it worked for me.  I heard from a friend that a school was going to make it manditory for seniors to watch the movie, I wouldn't call it a bad idea.

Tiffany, the girlfriend, is in Japan for 10 days, and its driving me insane.  I was fortunate to get a call from her today, no telling how much long distance cost from Japan to North America...I love that girl.

I've been working on my skill set as an artist lately, focusing on design a lot(colors, balance, typography, etc.).  I hope that this time I'm putting into it will pay off in the end.